what is ♡

it’s when the memories pull down on your throat

it’s when gravity pulls you a little harder and makes it hard to make simple movements

it’s when you obsess over minor changes

it’s when you become selfish and wish him misery

it’s when the thought of him with someone else breaks every bone in your body and stabs your heart with the shattered remains

it’s when you are not the same anymore

it’s when everything good is paired with the weight of the past

it’s when you miss every, single, thing

it’s when you cannot go a day without thinking of him

it’s when you can’t move on…
i can’t move on.

fate and its evil workings

When you can see it ending, why even bother trying?
I. dont. know.
All I know right now is that the feeling’s mutual but time is limited.

Funny how fate works in the most inconvenient ways. Something finally decides to work out and of course it has to happen at the very last moment when I simply just do not have time. 

How do you even begin to commit to something that has a definite and inescapable ending?
I guess since I’m already wayyyy too emotionally invested, I’ve set myself up for heartbreak and disappointment once again. The most pathetic thing about this situation is that I can’t even find the courage to stop nor do I want to end this “relationship.” Somehow, I want to make this work and it’s just so hard to let go because he really makes me happy. He makes me happy.

He makes me HAPPY… .

…He makes me happy but he also makes me feel hopeless.

Like I said, fate can be a pain in the ass.
right Joseph?